Actions and words

There are dreams and there are realities. Where the two intersect seem to be an infinite area of gray. The grass IS always greener on the other side, but is the other side's grass still greener than it is here when I get there?
Jake is starting to have second thoughts on leaving it all...SLC, our jobs, our family and friends...our stability and comfort zone, our contentment and indecisivness. If noone follows their dreams or leaves their comfort zone then nothing will ever change, right? But are we the ones to attempt to make change or are we the ones that stay the same but always to continue to talk about changing?
What will happen when our season is up and we have to decide what to do next? Will things 'just work out' for us or will we be screwed, regretting this decision and wondering what in the hell we were thinking by quitting our lives to chase rainbows. But then again, we've always talked about chasing rainbows, it's seemed like the thing to do...we are really good talkers but when it comes to taking action we seem to get quieter. Can our actions be as loud as our words? Will we do this??
It seems that each day I get less and less interested in evolving technology for the extent that it makes me feel less human. The more advanced our world gets the less it thinks it needs nature...the less we think nature is a part of us the more likely we are to destroy it to better advance our technology. And this cycle continues until we no longer recognize ourselves in the natural world and we eventually destroy ourselves in the process. Why do we feel like in order to become better, happier people we have to ruin everything around us? It just amazes me that there is such a disconnect between our values and actions...our everyday routines and the impact that they have on future generations, because really, who thinks about the difference it makes whether we buy a Big Mac for dinner or bake some locally grown squash?? Who thinks about the factory farmed cow that, rather than grazing in open pastures, was fed corn and other cow parts...and that the amount of waste produced by all these cows stuffed into a small space will pollute the water and air that surrounds them?? And that because so many people want so many Big Macs that more and more factory farms go up and less open grazing occurs and more hormones and antibiotics are used, cause cows aren't meant to live like this...so all the Big Mac eaters are also getting a bonus of hormones and antibiotics and are not only buying a Big Mac...they're also buying into stock of these factory farmers that keep the cycle going...
And it also kinda pisses me off that most of the food we eat comes from much more exotic places than I'll ever be able to visit...WTF?
       So anyways...

Stay tuned for more exciting internal struggles and debates as to whether we are (more like 'I am') going crazy or if we are following our realistic dreams...